Just as Garbage is celebrating the 20th anniversary of the band’s brilliant second album Version 2.0, lead singer Shirley Manson is focusing on some other serious matters.
In an opinion piece published in The New York Times today, Manson has written about the subject of self-harm.
The article, titled The First Time I Cut Myself, goes into explicit detail about how negative self-image led to Manson beginning to harm herself.
The article begins:
The first time I cut myself, I was sitting on the edge of a bed inside my boyfriend’s flat.
It was late. He and I had been arguing for some time, our voices gradually becoming more and more raised. I was concerned that we might wake his flat-mates, and in a moment of utter exasperation, I reached across for my little silver penknife, pulled it from the lace of my shoe and ran the tiny blade across the skin of one ankle.
It didn’t hurt.
I did it again.
And then I did it again.
I looked dispassionately at the three thin red lines I had made and watched as tiny little bubbles of my blood oozed to the surface.
My boyfriend snorted in disdain and called me some nasty, misogynistic names before turning his back and immediately falling asleep. I felt somewhat elated, as I imagine a scientist might while working on an experiment that suddenly, after much persistence, has yielded favourable results.
Manson writes that she felt warm surges of comfort and relief when she used to cut herself, “relief from powerlessness”. She says her self-harming got worse with practice (“Once you choose to indulge in it, you get better, more efficient”) and that she would hide the scars beneath her stockings, never telling anyone about it.
Once she began dating “an incredible communicator” of a guy, the cutting abruptly stopped.
Shirley Manson has been a prominent spokesperson on various subjects including LGBTI rights, female empowerment, and body image. Antonino Tati
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